TomLindemann

i can't stand that depressive entry on the top of my page no more
everything is ok and i'm pretty happy with my life right now

My dad passed away this morning.
I will miss you, papa
I'm sure we'll meet again

About El Moran. Tom Lindemann is 100 percent manly nickname, so I can't sign my university works. I'm even not an androgyne, so it'll be too... too much. Sir Tomas is still my nickname, but now my official pseudoname is El (Elizabeth) Moran. And I'm trying to get used to it.
About my comfort zone. I found an inspiration source. Well, it's hard to talk about, but I tried to commit suicide over 5 times now. Fucking stop it. I have an ability to communicate with interesting artistic people, and also I still have some free time (amazing!) for my favourite music and so. SOOO I prefer not to talk on themes that hurts me, not even see people who used to hurt me. You may tell It's bad, you need to get over it blah blah blah fuck off. I don't want to grow balls and get away far from my comfort zone.  
About my university. Finally I love everything I'm doing for study. Yep.
About travelling. Have no ability to travel now. Feel not really bad sitting in one town. It does not mean I will not travel! Travelling is my dream, but there's no ability to travel now. So I will visit many countries later. Just a bit later
About my favourite band, suddenly. After 6 years if I not mistake Turisas finally coming to Russia!  

I don't care that nobody's reading me, that's almost for myself, y'know.
I'm pathetic.

• 1. Any scars? Right hand almost full covered with burn scar. Surgery scar on stomach. Many scars on knees. Little one on lips (pretty like Sergey Dragunov from Tekken lol) 
• 2. Self harmed? Yep, I'm suicidal
• 3. Crush? I don't like that word
• 4. Kissed anyone? Of course
• 5. Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi
• 6. Someone you hate? For example like guy whose name is Nikita 
• 7. Best Friends? Anastasia, Valery, Alexander, Nikita (not that one from previous question obviously)
• 8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? I'm drinking everyday i'm russian, but no drugs
• 9. What's your dream job? Conceptual artist
• 10. Ever been in love? Maybe
• 11. Last time you cried? A few days ago
• 12. Favorite color? Purple
• 13. Height? 168 cm
• 14. Birthday? March 11
• 15. Eye color? Green
• 16. Hair color? Purple right now lol
• 17. What do you love? Drawing, "searching for inspiration"
• 18. Obsession? My university
• 19. If you had one wish, what would it be? Pontiac Firebird 1981 Idk
• 20. Do you love someone? Yes
• 21. Kiss or hug? I love hugs more :3
• 22. Nicknames people call you? Sir Tomas, Holy Father, El (that's pretty strange reduction for my name in this country, so probably I can call this nickname)
• 23. Favorite song? Ляпис Трубецкой - Я верю (Lyapis Trubetskoy - I believe)
• 24. Favorite band? I have a lot of fav bands, my very very beloved one is Turisas, but official info is Blink-182
• 25. Worst thing that has ever happened to you? No idea
• 26. Best thing that has ever happened to you? Being a passenger of one awesome sexy biker
• 27. Something you would change about yourself? I could be thinner and just A LITTLE BIT higher
• 28. Ever dated someone? No
• 29. Worst mistake? Too much trust to random people
• 30. Watch the movie or read the book? Both
• 31. Ever had a heartbreak? Yep
• 32. Favorite show? Dudesons
• 33. Best day of your life? Look to question 26
• 34. Any talents? No talents!
• 35. Do you wish you could ever start over? Not really.
• 36. Any bad habits? Smoking, alcohol, self-harming. I'm fabulous.
• 37. Ever had a near death experience? Yep.
• 38. Someone I can tell anything to? Anastasia.
• 39. Ever lost a loved one? I'd prefer not to talk about it.
• 40. Do you believe in love? Trying to believe. (No, man, seriously, what are you talking about? You can love a mother, a brother, a friend, an animal - what to believe to? It is)
• 41. Someone you hate/Dislike? Look to question 6
• 42. Are you okay? No
• 43. Relationship status? Not married, in free relationship